Friday, June 23, 2017
I shall only cry to myself. No one else shall ever know. I'm always the strong. The happy-go-lucky. Fuck that..
Time :
8:18 PM
She'll probably never see this blog. Ever. Bet ter not..
Time :
8:02 PM
I'm feeling so sad. She's not even willing to talk to me. I'm at work right now and having my dinner break. Called home and just wanted to talk to her and hear her beautiful voice. She sounded distracted.. She probably is. Our son was crying over the phone.. I could hear him. Pacifying him I guess? I try not to dwell to much on it.
We've been fighting. I don't like that. Not at all. In fact I hate fighting with her. But I get grouchy when I get woken up.. Especially when I've just fallen asleep a couple of hours prior. And because of that, we fought earlier this morning. 4+am. I hate myself for getting grouchy and angry.
What should I do? I've been trying so hard and I'm so very drained by the odd hours, lack of sleep, managing my own stress levels as well as juggling hers. I'm on the edge so frequently. It's taking a toll on me. I need a new job. But none of the jobs I'd like to do has the weekend off.
Fuck. Fuck. FUCK!
Time :
7:58 PM
