Tuesday, December 26, 2017
I'm sure nobody even reads this blog anymore. Anyway. Just me still emo-ing on my own. Nobody I can really talk to about my emotions. No close friends. None really that close. None.
Fights always cause of my job. Hours and shifts. I'm fucking sick and tired of that shit but I can't do shit about it. Nobody else seems to be willing to hire me. I don't know wtf is going on. I'm not good with words and I piss her off. Bad. Often. Bad choice of words and they just seem to come off my tongue. Can't tell whats going on. Just myself I guess? Feeling like shit.
Many things planned but they seem like they never happen. Sigh.. I guess this is a good avenue for me to vent? Since no one's reading and it's just me myself and i. I just wish what I do and did can make her happy. But doesn't seem like that most of the time. What am I doing wrong? Crying isn't what I do.. So I don't. But it still hurts like hell.
People. Many. Younger or same age. Doing well. Owning cars. Homes done nicely. Not like my home isn't nice though. I do love my home. My designs. My touch. Them going on holidays. Exotic places. Europe. Taiwan. I can't even afford to go Malaysia for a short tour. What exactly the fuck am I doing with my life?
Shithead.
Till next time. If there's ever one.
Time :
2:27 PM
